If you had told me at the beginning of 2017 that I would become friends with two people in the public eye who I admire immensely, that I would be offered a chance to live and work on a tropical island, that I would have my own blog with hundreds of subscribers, and that I would be involved in an opportunity that could set me up financially for life, I would have asked what drugs you were taking! Little did I realise the surprises that awaited me in 2017!
Let’s go back to January. I’d just come out of the most mind-bending, rollercoaster of a year in my ENTIRE LIFE! Without any prior warning, I was swept into inner turmoil; a spiritual awakening that left me breathless in its magnitude. My whole world was turned upside down and I was now questioning every part of my very existence and the world in which I lived.
Come the New Year, I was a different person – but my outer world had not changed one iota. So I knew that 2017 had to be a year of ACTION.
I needed to take all the theory, all the learning I’d done in 2016, and use it to create the life of my dreams. I did not expect what the universe had in store for me……way beyond what I had in mind!!
I was hoping to move to London, set up a new life there and become a successful trader with a new set of friends and vastly improved social life. But (as predicted by a psychic!) NONE of that happened! What came to me though, was even BETTER. And I never would have imagined it!
It began with Laura White getting in touch with me, swiftly followed by Brett Moran……..
….two people who were both spiritually minded, into the law of attraction, who saw something in me from this blog. This happened in the same week and that was the week when I realised that seeds were starting to grow. All my hard inner work in 2016, the daily meditations, visualisations, afformations, hard graft changing limiting beliefs, were finally materialising into my outer reality. And I believe it was because I was taking greater action; by starting this blog, primarily.
Brett went on to offer me the chance of a lifetime working with him in Thailand, whilst Laura taught me so much about how to just BE – how to live a life of true happiness. That it must come from within. She was the first person I’d ever met who has lived the law of attraction her entire life. She GETS it. Brett does too, though he had to go through a huge life shift and transformation to get there – just as I have this year and last.
But it wasn’t just these more well-known people. EVERY significant person who came into my life this year, had some connection to spirituality and the law of attraction. There’s just no way that could be coincidental. It’s not like I went out there searching for these people – they just “came” to me! These people have helped me tremendously (Brett, Laura, Barbara, Sima, Chev, Peter, Melanie, Vitaliy – if you’re reading, thank you for all your help!) and I know that even more people like them are going to be drawn to me in the coming months.
It wasn’t just about external action though. I continued learning and developing from within and lightbulbs were switched on by books such as “Conversations With God”, “The Power of Now” and “The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari”.
After that, I truly had faith finally, that this world is so much more than we perceive with our limited 5 senses and that the law of attraction is 100% real (I also had an incredible experience recently with an energy healer, which I’m going to write about soon!). However, it wasn’t all a bed of roses from there.
The second half of 2017 was a massive struggle.
I slipped backward. I went from an elated high, where I was walking on air, unstoppable, unbreakable, unquenchable…….to a low that I feared might crush me. I lost a lot of money through work and all of a sudden, doubts began to rear their head. I could feel the negativity coming back and I had to work immensely hard to keep the wolves at bay.
In hindsight, I realise that I needed to experience this. It showed me that I still needed to work on something which was holding me back and could cause me further problems if I didn’t deal with it; my attitude towards money. I realised that my confidence levels were dictated to way too much by how much money I had. When I had it (back in the summer) I was too over-confident. I became reckless and it cost me big time. When I didn’t have any, I was immediately down in the dumps – the swing was too large, from one extreme to the other.
I realised that I needed to find a stable ground. One of my favourite quotes is from Barack Obama:
“I never get too high with the highs and never get too low with the lows.”
He said he taught that to his kids because he feels it’s the key to life. I agree. So I started working every day on rectifying this issue, with affirmations and visualisations. After a few weeks, something shifted within. I felt different. I woke up one day and suddenly KNEW that everything was gonna be OK. I knew that something was gonna come my way, some sort of opportunity that would help me financially. I just needed to put my trust in the universe, relax and continue being grateful for the good in my life.
And guess what?
Out of nowhere came an opportunity that is now making me money. Something that was predicted by a psychic at the end of 2016. I should’ve just trusted her – she’s been right about everything else this year!! But I truly believe that the key to all that was just suspending the worry, having faith and waiting patiently, whilst at the same time, continue working away diligently towards my goals.
When an issue comes up now, I don’t get too low with the low – I face it head on and put in the work internally as well as externally, till it’s sorted. No sticking my head in the sand, no moaning, no anger, no tears, no procrastination, no waiting for a saviour – just accept the situation and take ACTION. I believe my issues regarding money have now been sorted forever – but it starts INTERNALLY. Once you get to the root of the issue (which is nearly always mental) it will reflect in the outer world.
2017 has been a year I will never forget.
I can’t lie, it’s not been fun. It won’t live fondly in the memory. I’m still nowhere near where I want to be. I’m not happy and that’s just me being honest. I’m still lonely, still skint and still hate my neighbours! But the difference from a year ago, is that I can ACCEPT it.
It does help, knowing that I’ll be living in Thailand soon! But even if I didn’t have that, I’d still feel far more self-assured. I have a stronger base level of confidence. I’m much more stable. Because my faith is stronger. Because I KNOW that there are forces out there that are working in my favour. Because I believe in myself even more. Because I know that my internal changes will eventually be reflected in my outer world.
All I need to do in the meantime, is continue to be get my head down and put in the work and remain grateful. And I really am grateful, every single day:
For the clothes on my back, the food in my stomach, the roof over my head, the family that loves me, the nature that I feel so much more connected with, the fact that I live in a free society with access to the internet which is bringing me all the opportunities I need to live the lifestyle that I want very soon.
I don’t focus on the negatives like I used to – and trust me, there are plenty of them! I wish that I had friends to talk with and be around, more than anything. Romantically, I’m in one of the biggest dry spells I’ve ever had! I have almost ZERO social life. And don’t even get me started on money…….
But considering I was suicidal just a few years ago, I’m just happy to be alive. 2017 wasn’t a great year but it sure as hell was one of the most important. Things are happening. Things that are going to be bigger than I ever envisioned. This is just the start…………..