After recovery from an anxiety disorder, I was left with a mess to deal with. I was going nowhere and needed guidance, answers as to what to do next.
They came to me in the form of a book “Think and Grow Rich”, which opened my eyes to a different way of looking at success and work.
From this, I began questioning EVERYTHING. Information began to seemingly fall into my vision which I’d ignored or been oblivious to my entire life, about everything from healthcare and education to spirituality and science.
For 12 months, I studied literally every day: books, videos, courses, websites, whatever info I could find, I devoured it.
From quantum physics to ancient history
Japanese reiki to global conspiracies
Vegan diets to neuroscience
The law of attraction to Buddhism.
My mind had been opened to completely different ways of life and alternative viewpoints, many of which I’d baulked at before. But I could see how they were all connected by one major factor;
They made far more sense than the often ridiculous and counter-intuitive ways of living that most of us were brought up blindly to believe and never to question.
The big game changer for me, after “Think and Grow Rich”, was learning about quantum physics (the study of matter at an atomic level). Why this was so important to my awakening was because it basically proved that our reality is not what it seems.
And I do mean SCIENTIFICALLY proves it.
To me, a staunch atheist and believer in science, this was a decisive factor. And it wasn’t new science either. Quantum physics has been around since the late 19th century. These weren’t some new-fangled, still-to-be-proven theories.
Albert Einstein was one of the pioneers! If you aren’t gonna believe the most famous genius the planet has ever known, for fucks sake, who can you believe? Actually, he spent the latter part of his life trying to DISPROVE his own findings. But never did. Which tells you a lot about their validity.
What quantum physics has shown (and has never been disproved, by the way) is that everything is made of energy. The old Newtonian physics we were taught at school? That everything is either solid matter or some form of wave?
I’m energy, you are energy, the chair you’re sitting in is energy, your pet cat is energy, the car that ran it over and left it with only three legs is energy, the cake you’re eating is energy (put DOWN the cake!) EVERYTHING IS ENERGY!
There is no solid, hard matter. If you look through a microscope at the tiny particles known as “atoms” that make up everything, you would eventually see……NOTHING. Because there is nothing there but little packets of energy.
Now that should be enough to fuck with your mind and make you rethink your reality. But if it doesn’t, check out this article. This is the very one that a year ago, turned my life around. It’s not in-depth but it has links to articles which are.
It’s a subject which requires time and attention (particularly the double-slit experiment, which is mind blowing and requires a separate post all of its own!) but once you fully take it in, it will change your perception of reality forever.
The very notion that the observer creates their own reality…….I mean, WOW! And that EVERYTHING in this world is connected. The implications are mind-bending!
As Niels Bohr (a pioneer quantum physicist) said:
“Everything we call real is made of things that cannot be regarded as real. If quantum mechanics hasn’t profoundly shocked you, you haven’t understood it yet.”
I KNOW NOTHING!
I’m not claiming I know ALL the answers. I can’t say I know for certain what our reality or perception of reality is. What I DO know, is that I know NOTHING! Which is more than most people are willing to admit. Because most people have not opened up their mind enough to delve into this. Once you do, you realise that nothing is as straightforward as we’ve been taught.
There’s little doubt we are all made of energy but as for what that actually means…….who the fuck knows? But I’m willing to remain open-minded on that and keep learning to see what science or my own experiences, teach me.
That was the start of me going down the rabbit hole. I learnt so much over the next 12 months and I’ll be sharing all of that with you on this blog.
Suffice to say, once you realise that reality is not what it seems, it makes you wonder what else within reality needs examining.
What I found was that there are many inspirational people out there who had also undergone this awakening and used it to turn their lives around from rock-bottom into something incredible. These were the people I started studying. You may be familiar with some of the names:
All of these people were expressing the same messages of love, hope, positivity, empowerment and spirituality that are starting to change the world; slowly but gradually getting quicker and quicker. I want to bring you along for the ride because I know if you are in a bad place right now, what I’ve learnt can help you out of it and onto great things.
In the final part of my spiritual awakening series, I explain the most important things I’ve learned during my awakening. Hasta luego!