After 20 minutes, I was really shaken up. I’d heard from my deceased friend and grandfather, and the psychic knew things about me that she couldn’t possibly have known beforehand. And I’ll say this; she was a lovely woman but not the sharpest tool in the box. She was really humble and down to earth and it was obvious from certain things she said and her whole demeanour, that this was no trickster. She came across as extremely confident in her ability too. Which on the one hand made me believe her but on the other hand, some of the things she was guessing about me were just plain wrong! For example, she sort of said or rather half-asked, that I had no siblings. Which isn’t true! I replied “No”. She came back with “You have a brother?”. Again, completely wrong! “Ah that’s right, a sister” she commented. So immediately now, I’m wondering “Does she really know what she’s doing?” I mean, how can she get such a basic thing wrong? I’d expect even a clever trickster with an ability to read the mind based on physical tells and a grasp of psychology, to be able to guess who my immediate family was.
If you had told me a year ago that I would spend real, hard-earned wonga on having someone predict my future, I would have laughed in your face! It was something I considered beyond ridiculous. As far as I was concerned, all psychics, seers and anyone who claimed to have the ability to read people’s lives, were fraudulent. Con artists preying on susceptible people, mostly old ladies, who clearly didn’t have any common sense. They knew tricks of how to get the information out of you but that was easy because it was just generic stuff; age, job, family. I could do that with a bit of training! I didn’t seriously think that anyone could see into the future either; I mean, they could make up any old shit, couldn’t they? “You are going to find love” well yes, now that you’ve told them that, they are more likely to start seriously looking for it and that optimism will naturally lead them towards finding a partner. Basically, I had a smart answer for everything on this subject.
But 6 months ago, a year into my spiritual awakening, I was starting to soften. I’d opened up my mind to the possibility that there might, just might be things going on in this world that we don’t fully understand. That science can’t explain. Things that a minority believe in, that are shunned by the majority of society. When you discover that “society” actually has its head in the sand over pretty much everything and most people are just on rails, following the crowd like sheep, you start to question EVERYTHING. And that means looking at the alternative viewpoints. Because it turns out, they just might be the sane ones! So I booked to see a psychic.
During the first year of his life, my little nephew would cry every time I came near him. They say that children have greater awareness of their environment than adults and can sense things more than we can. Perhaps he could sense I was anxious and in a bad place in my life at that time? Whatever the reason, it’s been an incredible turnaround, as we are now very close. I would go as far to say that he is the best thing that’s happened in my life since my second bout of anxiety. Partly because, as with most toddlers, he is a joy to be around and makes me laugh. But also because the very nature of a young child, the way they act and live in the moment, is exactly what most of us adults have lost touch with and ultimately, need to re-learn.
Mindfulness, meditation and “living for now” are phrases that you’ll see popping into the mainstream more and more in the next few years. Finally, Western culture is beginning to realise that what has been a staple of Eastern culture for thousands of years, is not some wacko, new-age bullshit but something absolutely crucial to living a healthy, happy life.
You guys kinda know me by now. I try to live a positive, disciplined, healthy, heart-based and hard-working life. Everything I do, from the moment I wake up till the moment my head hits the pillow, is geared towards maintaining as a high a vibration as possible. In non-spiritual terms, that means I try to keep the negativity dragons at bay! But that doesn’t mean they aren’t there. Some days, it can be really tough to batten down the hatches and stop getting burned by the flames. Yesterday was such a day.
Most days, I just hustle. That gets me through the day without even having the time to dwell on the past, feel sorry about the present or worry about the future. But sometimes, no matter how grateful I am just to be alive, just to be able to live in a free and democratic country, just to have food in my stomach, clean clothes on my back and a warm bed to sleep in, I lose that battle. I don’t lose the war. I’ll never lose the war and that’s what’s crucial. I am too mentally strong to ever lose that war again. But sometimes, the smoke from the dragon’s flames chokes me. Causes me to drop to my knees in weakness for a few hours. Yesterday was such a day.
My first 2 months of blogging have been a bit of a whirlwind! I knew blogging would be a challenge but I didn’t expect it to be quite so time consuming. One of the things I’ve not even had time to write about much is my day to day activities. In my very first post, I told you that I wanted to create my dream life. In a previous post, I told you about my daily routines which are in place to help achieve that. I’ve also posted about my long term goals. But I haven’t had a chance to reveal what I’m doing on a daily basis specifically to attain those goals, work-wise. That is what will dig me out of the trench I’m in now and enable me to move to London, create a new circle of friends, multiple streams of income and more freedom to travel and do what I love. Here’s what I do now:
As I established in my previous post, I’m not 100% convinced in the law of attraction. Quantum physics is very real and appears to back it up scientifically. The research I’d done every day throughout 2016, studying people who were sharing their knowledge of the LOA and how it had turned their lives around, also proved a compelling argument. But one crucial thing was missing; I hadn’t experienced anything decisive personally. Despite attempting to live that mantra over the past year, being positive, grateful and living life from my heart, taking action towards gaining a life I truly desire, I haven’t made great strides. Nothing major I’m trying to manifest has appeared. However, when I look back over my past and deconstruct how my life has panned out, it does seem to back up the whole LOA theory.
Before I start to talk about this most controversial of subjects, I want you to know this. I only discovered the Law of Attraction (LOA) 12 months ago. Before that, I’d seen the phrase knocking around the internet but just assumed it was some cheesy dating thing and ignored it. Up to that point in my life, I was the kind of guy who mocked things like the LOA. Anything remotely spiritual I would automatically rail against and look for ways of disproving. If it wasn’t backed up by mainstream science, I didn’t want to know. I would actually enjoy picking holes in the arguments. I considered myself a normal, straight-talking, down to earth, pragmatic man. Liberal and open-minded, yet at the same time, realistic.
But after reading “Think and Grow Rich” and then learning about quantum physics, I was starting to realise that I wasn’t as open-minded and didn’t know as much as I’d thought. When famous scientists, writers, psychologists, wealthy business men, politicians (Einstein, Jung, Tesla, Napoleon Hill etc) were talking about a different way of thinking an entire century ago, a reality which appeared so incongruent to what I believed, I began to sit up and take it seriously. It was at this point, that I decided to find out just what the LOA actually was. And it had nothing to do with Tinder…..
Today, I’m going to show you a list of all the main ingrained habits I had in my life before my spiritual awakening and all the new ones I’ve tried to implement afterwards:
High fibre cereal
Watch Frasier repeats, news and politics shows
Face moisturise with commercial product
So here’s a few things you need to know about me going through a spiritual awakening:
- I’m not going crazy!
- I’m not part of some weird cult!
- I haven’t become a born again Christian!
- I’m not a conspiracy theorist!
The information that I’ve taken in is widely available and much of it was known and recorded by the early human civilisations (such as the ancient Egyptians) going back over 4000 years. It’s only becoming more widely known now because of the internet.
Up to 2016, I was not at all open to much of this. I was a staunch atheist who believed that when you’re dead, you’re dead. I didn’t believe in anything remotely spiritual. I laughed at people who thought that “everything happens for a reason” and there are no coincidences. That if science couldn’t prove something beyond all doubt, then it didn’t exist. That eastern medicine was weird and not to be trusted, unlike western medicine. But what this awakening did for me, was make me question why I had those beliefs. I soon realised that the majority of the beliefs I had were not based on any research on my behalf and in some cases, with very little knowledge of the subject. I had merely appropriated them from other people; from “society” in general. And this is true for an alarming number of self-held beliefs that almost all of us have.
To summarise the first 2 parts:
After recovery from anxiety, I was left with a mess to deal with. I was going nowhere and needed guidance, answers as to what to do next.
They came to me in the form of a book “Think and Grow Rich”, which opened my eyes to a different way of looking at success and work.
From this, I began questioning EVERYTHING. Information began to seemingly fall into my vision which I’d ignored my entire life about everything from healthcare and education to spirituality and science. For 12 months, I studied literally every day: books, videos, courses, websites, whatever info I could find, I devoured it. From quantum physics to ancient history, Japanese reiki to global conspiracies, vegan diets to neuroscience, the law of attraction to Buddhism. My mind had been opened to completely different ways of life and alternative viewpoints, many of which I’d baulked at before. But I could see how they were all connected by one major factor; they made far more sense than the often ridiculous and counter-intuitive ways of living that most of us were brought up blindly to believe and never to question.
The big game changer for me, after “Think and Grow Rich”, was learning about quantum physics (the study of matter at an atomic level). Why this was so important to my awakening was because it basically proved that our reality is not what it seems.