My first week, I took part in a yoga retreat in Thailand, hosted and run byBrett Moran, who has been a huge inspiration to me during my spiritual awakening of the past 2 years, with his YouTube vlogs. But this retreat brought up some new issues. Many people on the retreat, if not everyone, found emotions creeping to the fore and tears were shed on several occasions, but I’ll be honest, I didn’t expect I’d be one of those people!
I was only on the retreat because I’m working with Brett as part of his team. Twinned with the fact I honestly thought I was mentally in a great place for the first time any many, many years (the best place I’d ever been, actually!), meant I really didn’t think I had any issues still lurking.
Over the past 2 years, I have done so much self-development work, almost every day, working through complex limiting beliefs and all the other shit which comes with an anxiety disorder and a lack of confidence, that the last thing I thought I needed help with was my self-esteem!
Yet there I was, sat up in bed on my fourth night in a row with barely an hour of sleep, at 2am, sobbing gratuitously. And it wasn’t just the lack of shuteye. I had no problem getting to sleep, as I was out like a light every single evening, after tough yoga sessions and intense heat. But I would wake up after an hour every time, because my mind was racing. Read more →
I’ve moved to Thailand and am now beginning my dream life, doing work I love, travelling to exotic locations and spending time with beautiful people who are also on the same journey of awakening and inspiring others to raise their consciousness and improve their lives.
Yep, all that woo-woo garbage!
During my very first week on my tropical island paradise, I took part in a yoga and transformational retreat, hosted by my mentor, YouTube and Instagram star and now housemate (yep, you heard right!) Brett Moran from Brett Moran TV!
It was my first experience of anything like this but I was looking forward to it tremendously. Yes, 2-3 years ago, I would have laughed at this kind of spiritual, head in the clouds, airy-fairy nonsense, but as I’ve awakened, I now realise that this kind of thing can change lives and yes indeed, the world.
But I have to say, it didn’t quite go as I’d planned………….
Sure, I can go without beef or pork for a long while, it’s no big deal. But chicken? Now that’s a WHOLE other story!
And you tend to forget about fish, the way we’ve been conditioned; it’s almost as if they don’t count as an animal! Plus, I love a juicy king prawn!
Then you’ve got your dairy………milk drenched cereal, rich cheesecake, milky tea, stringy pizza topping and any kind of moist, tempting cake…….how an earth can I leave all that behind?!
I’ll tell you how!
Perhaps the biggest change that has occurred with me since my awakening, my deeper questioning of life, of the last 2 years and my commitment to continuous personal development, is my connection with nature.
When I try to explain this, some people don’t get it. I wouldn’t expect them to, simply because it’s something you have to experience yourself to understand.
One friend said to me that she already was a nature lover, so going through an awakening would make no difference to her. But you see, I have always been a nature lover too.
Alexi Panos was one of those people who just clicked with me instantly at the height of my spiritual awakening. I first saw her in The Abundance Factor Movie and was spellbound by her passion, energy, astoundingly honest story of immense highs, success (a top modelling career) and despairing lows (rape), and the way she now devotes her life to helping others.
Man, if I could ony find a woman like her! I’ll have to make do with interviews like this one with the wonderful Rick William on his YouTube channel. She talks about her crazy, inspirational life, spirituality and how any one of us can create an epic dream life too.
Alexi also has a great channel she still posts on occassionally – check it out!
This world is completely, utterly insane! If you still haven’t woken up to that fact yet, then I have a story for you!
If there is just one experience, one anecdote that I would use to prove to anyone or to try to convince them that our reality, is way more than we can explain by using our limited 5 senses, then my experience with an energy healer recently, would be my choice!
This was the moment that really tipped me from being 99% sure in the law of attraction, to 100%. Because I actually FELT something, for the first time. I had a tangible, physical experience that I simply could not refute, no matter how I tried to rationalise it.
Everything else that I would have previously used in conversation with doubters, was anecdotal or had the minute chance that it could just have been coincidence (I would be 99% sure it was down to the law of attraction but there was always a 1% chance it might have been sheer coincidence).
But not the energy healing; he wasn’t even in the same COUNTRY as me! Read more →
A few years ago, before I began my process of awakening (you know, from that zombie-esque sleepwalking!) questioning everything in life, and self-development, Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear, would have been the type of book I would have run a mile from!
On the outside, it appears to be your classic, namby-pamby, head in the clouds, self-help, woo-woo drivel for pretentious creative types. Written by the author of Eat, Pray, Love (your classic namby-pamby, head in the clouds, white middle-class American woman on a foreign journey of self discovery drivel!), you can see how one might think that!
But once again on this increasingly incredible twist to my life over the past 2 years, I find myself thinking and feeling the exact opposite of what the old me would have thought or felt. Read more →
If you’d told me 18 months ago that I would meditate every single day, without fail and actually ENJOY it, I would have had you sectioned – for you surely would have been insane! I simply could not keep my mind quiet for more than 10 seconds – and that was a struggle! And on the odd moments where I did manage to relax, I would fall asleep!
There was literally nothing I liked about this practice. My legs ached for days after sitting in the lotus position. I never managed to shut out all thoughts – my mind would always race away to whatever worries I had going on that day. It was a wholly frustrating experience and I just didn’t understand what all the fuss was about.