Continuing from part 1, this is an analysis of the second half of my day trip to London, comparing how I think and act as someone without anxiety, to how I was when I had an anxiety disorder.
As we approach the ticket barriers on mass, most passengers are either confused, tentative or follow each other like sheep to one of the barriers. They don’t want to go first. Or they don’t know which barrier to go through so blindly follow someone they think knows better (not realising they are just as clueless!).
Today I had to venture into London for a meeting. Rewind 2 years ago to when I still had post traumatic anxiety and this meeting would have been a nightmare – that’s if I had even managed to get out of the house! Of course, it would never have happened anyway, as I had no job, no contacts, no motivation and no reason for a meeting of any sort, other than to get my meds from the doctor!
But I did wonder; how have my thought processes changed since then? This was my first time going back to London since I was assaulted years ago. How would the “new” anxiety-free Tim, think and act when confronted with the hustle and bustle of one of the world’s most crowded cities? I thought it would be interesting to compare my new thought processes with my old ones. The results were startling….
I first came across the guy known online as Gary Vee, early in 2017. As a fan of straight taking, no-nonsense, I was instantly drawn in because I’m here to inform you, NO-ONE does crap-cutting, piercing to the heart of the matter, like this man!
It would be foolish of you to be put off by the big, brash, profanity-laden, motor-mouth persona. Yes, he is all that and more! But away from the stages where he gives speeches to conferences (as in the above video) and countless media interviews, he’s an extraordinarily generous, kind, positive, perceptive man, who relates well to others and is well liked as well as respected.
One of the major things I’ve changed in my daily routine this year, is the elimination of my old obsession with watching the news or immersing myself in news stories online. I considered it a vital part of my day, something I needed to do to stay informed – though I’ll be honest and admit it had become an addiction that would take up hours.
I never realised just how much of a negative influence it was having on me. But it doesn’t take much to see just why it can affect so many of us in our overall mindset to life. Here are the headlines I saw immediately as I opened Bing today (and these are just local to UK):
I was initially reluctant to get this book due to the word “god”. The fact I have not written god with a capital G tells you all you need to know about my feelings towards it! I have never believed in god since I became an adult, have been an atheist most of the proceeding time and now………..well, let’s just say books like Conversations With God are making me re-think that! But it doesn’t matter if you are agnostic, atheist or religious, this book is a must-read. But be warned; no matter what your belief, you are about to have it severely challenged!
The 3rd in my series where I tell all you lovely folks about the ups and downs of living a life devoted to self development and the law of attraction. This week, I’m attempting to bounce back after my horrendous monetary losses…………and discuss why maybe, just maybe, it happened for a reason!
I can now say with 100% certainty that I believe in the Law of Attraction. Too much crazy shit has happened in recent times for me to think anything otherwise!! But I’ve found that it can be difficult to have faith in it, particularly when thing aren’t going so well. When that happens, I like to remind myself of things that make me realise ANYTHING is possible because we live in a world full of mysteries, miracles and mind boggling wonders that the human mind can barely comprehend!
Here’s a list of 10 things on this planet (and beyond!) that even after millennia of human existence, we STILL haven’t got the foggiest idea what it fully means or what is there. If that’s the case, then why the hell can’t the law of attraction be real?
When I first began this journey down the rabbit hole of enlightenment, the vast majority of people I was learning from were American (or Canadian). Most of them were middle aged or older. Whilst I didn’t have an issue with this (and age means nothing to me, even more so 18 months into this journey) during those first 6 months or so, I was in a constant battle to keep faith in what I was learning.
When you are a young, mixed-race male from a working-class family in England, with no prior experience or belief in anything spiritual, it’s kind of difficult to instantly buy into things like the law of attraction or anything that can’t be experienced with the 5 senses. So it helps at least in the beginning, to have one or two people who you can relate more easily to. Ralph Smart helped enormously with that, but it was another guy who REALLY resonated with me more than anyone else; ex-con, football hooligan and drug addict, turned yoga and transformational coach, Brett Moran!