The first in a weekly series of video updates where I talk about what’s going on in my life as I attempt to create the life of my dreams using the law of attraction and other related self development techniques. This week, I’m as a high as a crack smoking giraffe on a bungee jump!!
Today, as I write, is World Suicide Prevention Day. There seems to be a special #day for everything these days but if there’s one subject that truly deserves to be highlighted for its own 24 hours, it is this one.
Samaritans Suicide Statistics Report 2017
- 6,188 suicides were registered in the UK
- The highest suicide rate in the UK was for men aged 40–44
- Rates have increased in the UK (by 3.8%) since 2014
- In the UK, female suicide rates are at their highest in a decade.
- Male rates remain consistently higher than female suicide rates – around 3 times higher
Less than 5 years ago, I was very close to becoming just another number on those statistics. As it is Suicide Prevention Day, I feel it is my duty to speak out for the very first time in life, about how I managed to stay alive.
Perhaps the biggest limiting belief I had that needed to be crushed before I could even think about getting the life of my dreams, was my negative attitude towards money. I began to realise that my thoughts and subsequent actions revolving around those bits of paper and metal, were seriously holding me back. It took a few months of work, analysing and deconstructing thoughts that had lived with me since I was a child and replacing them with positive ones but I eventually got to the stage where I viewed money in a totally new light. If only I’d read “Rich Dad, Poor Dad” back then! Because this book not only will destroy any negative limiting beliefs on the subject, it also tells you exactly how to get hold of the stuff and make it work for you. This is practical, actionable stuff – not just law of attraction visualisations and affirmations.
For the past year, I have been regularly visualising to materialise. But I don’t think it’s till recently that I have truly understood what I need to do. That it’s the HEART that is the key to everything. I also never had 100% faith in the law of attraction. I always had a nagging doubt. But now, I am 100% certain it’s real. That’s partly because I’ve seen it in action for myself, bringing me people and circumstances which are changing my life. But also, I’ve learned a few new things which have helped cement it in place. So now, my old visualisations seem, well, a bit tame to be honest! I have no doubt whatsoever that those dreams will come true. That’s because now, they aren’t big enough for me.
OK it’s time to finally come clean! I’ve been hiding the truth from you. Being a bit coy with what’s going on in my life. You see, until recently, there was still a part of me that was scared. Worried that all the good things which had started to manifest in my life, were going to be whipped away from me, like a tablecloth in a magician’s trick. I started to get uncomfortable, panicky feelings that my future was out of my control and that one change of heart from one individual could bring my hopes crashing to the bottom of a canyon. Because of this, I haven’t dared write about the specifics of what is happening in my life. I also risked feeling like a complete fool if I told you all this exciting news only to have to report that none of it was actually happening. But I’ve had a paradigm shift lately.
This is the man who I was totally obsessed with almost every day for an entire YEAR. I was enthralled by the wisdom spewed forth from this charismatic young Brit. Before, I had always thought YouTube was just full of clips of cats on skateboards, music videos and immature humour for teens. I had no idea it was a treasure trove of audio books, useful how-to videos and most fascinatingly, vlogs. Everyday people sharing their knowledge.
I have mentioned a few times a new friend who has come into my life since I began blogging. The circumstances surrounding how she suddenly appeared and who she is, left me in very little doubt that we were drawn together through the law of attraction. In fact, I would say she is a major reason why I now believe in it 100%. For a while now, I had asked the universe to send me someone who I could talk to about what I’d been going through the past 18 months. Someone who understood this pathway, was either going through the same spiritual enlightenment or was already experienced in this way of living. But I hadn’t met anyone who really understood what I was going through. Then, just a few weeks into blogging, I received a direct message on Twitter from a girl I recognised very well indeed…………..
It’s been 18 months since I started on a path of self development in an attempt to radically change my life into something special, rather than the savage, empty mess it had become. I call it my spiritual awakening because that seems to be the term used most often by people who have experienced the same startling upheavals. Here are the 10 biggest changes which occurred in my life during this period:
Drug overdose deaths in the US have reached record highs and many of them are from legally prescribed medication. Russell Brand takes a look at why this could be in his YouTube series “The Trews” (True News). This ties in well with one of the key messages I try to get across on this blog: meds are NOT the answer and never will be, to anxiety or depression. All pain comes from a much deeper level.
The Secret often gets a bad rap these days. It seems to be fashionable to say that it doesn’t go into enough details about the law of attraction and that this gives the impression that all you have to do is ask for something, do a few visualisations and you will get whatever you want. So I thought I’d read it and see if that was the case!